Wednesday, March 3, 2010 @ 11:30 PM
and the beaches errode away as our smiles fade yellow

its been closed to 1 year since i posted here. I guess things have pretty much change, no, things have changed till its beyond my expectation. It was totally unforeseen and unexpected for. I didn't want any part of this at all. I guess its all beyond our control..

at some point i used to think that you said you'll nv leave me, so what do i do, now that you are gone? i felt so lost, everyday. pretty much directionless. You left me hopeless and helpless. All the painful nights and afternoon, it was pretty much wks till i had decent slp without having to dream of you everytime i closes my eyes.

and at some point i guess i couldn't help but hated you, i probably felt that its ok, its alright, im so much better without you. But i know it was all a lie. You were just too much a part of me.. that when you left, you took a whole chunk of my soul along with it. Your 1 decision deem all my commitments, sacrifices, efforts, all my love, everything that i had done for you, every little talks that made you feel better, that supported you, that gave you a life, that made you who you are today, every single detail, you have damned and condemn it, render it useless, nothing but all part of a minute memory of your life.

I guess the moments are gone already, those moments that were neither reproductive nor equally the same, come & go with the flow of time, that is none but once in a lifetime..

You were the one who build me up, you were the one who tore me down. You were my greatest pride and yet also my greatest downfall. You were the best of me and you also brought out the worst in me.

I cried till my heart bled. And i know you died too, the moment you had a change of heart. The old you that i still miss occasionally, i don't see it in you anymore. Things change, circumstances change, challenges increases but i thought you will remain.

I guess i was wrong.

But 1 thing i am sure. It was your loss. Though i lost everything, i lost my entire world. But you lost the entire universe that would be your haven and your refuge. You chose to give it up.

1 mistake is enough, i guess without failure, we'll nv succeed. My take away is only so that i will treasure the next even more.

SJM - 到了明天

到了明天　说好不再见面　
坐在街尾的店　我一个人　点了一杯想念
到了明天　只能让爱擦肩　
两个人的笑脸　天亮前　变成泛黄的照片

身边 寂寞在蔓延
视线 被泪水模糊焦点
把我爱你　留在了心底　放在了唇边

爱　还留在我房间　
回忆还很新鲜　一瞬间　
感觉你就在眼前

身边 寂寞在蔓延
这视线 被泪水模糊焦点
一句我爱你　深深留在了心底　放在了唇边

到了明天　你就离开我身边
到了明天　独自向流星许愿　
像一场电影的完结篇
我们的结局应验泪水的预言
碎了一地的诺言　拼凑不回的昨天　
可我一直期待奇迹会出现 oh no
而你离去身影　却越来越远

没有你爱开始冬眠　孤单会占据每一天　
我站在路灯下面　冷清的街 边
那个曾相拥的地点
是我们一起躲过雨的屋檐

我依然还　怀念相爱的从前
我依然还　等你回到我身边　你留在我冰冷的枕边
按下暂停的时间　直到你再次出现　无法承受没有你的每一天 oh no
我爱你不会改变
我爱著你　到永远